April

Hi there! I've been long time not open my blog, it ironic when my first post I said that Im gonna post about my life every single day :D

I'm on easter's vacation for 2 weeks, so I'm in my grandparent's house now. But  it's gonna over next week. Time passes too fast.

You know why this post is titled APRIL? Okay, here I tell you why, April is my first favorite month in the year, cause April is when the spring begin, when the flower blooming and the sky looks so much better  and brighter than winter, and also easter's party is on april :D Which is, its gonna much of chocolate of easter and STRAWBERRY here. YEay! And also My birthday is on April, 18 april. 

What's special about arpil this year? It's special cause this year I'm gonna be 20. Not old enough to be called old but too you to called teenager too. Yeah, 20. I remember when I was a little, so innocent, don't know anything, don't know how hard life's gonna be, when in my mind was only PLAYING and TOYS. And now here, me, turning 20 next Wednesday, keeping fight to my dream, in the country I've never expected before I'd be here. I'm so proud to my mom. Thanks mom for keeping support me. You're my role model in this life. I wish 20 years by now I can make you proud too. :)

udh 2 bulan lebih kita udahan, tapi aku masih nangisin kami tiap malem gie :( kenapa sih aku gini?
kepalanya pusing,badannya lemes,airmatanya gak bisa ditahan,di jam sgini gak tau mau teriak ke siapa...habis baca history sblm kt berantem n pas bernatemnya, kenapa aku harus respon yang emosi gitu sih? kalo aku gak ikut emosi ky km mngkin kita gak bakal gie..

checking the history

just checked my bbm history then i found this, our last fight convo, how stupid I am

"21C31414"Kasian ga sih?

"22DAFC7F",Ak tw ak slah.hrusny ak blg k km...tp ak ga mw,adany nti mlah kt yg brantem

"21C31414",Aku tau dr dulu d sma sampe skg sikap made tuh lebih k km

"22DAFC7F",Ak jg ga mw ada apa2 km sma made... Yg ak pkirin ak knl km dr dy ...krna dlu yg ak ada d pkiran ak ya ky gtu...

"21C31414",Ak bisa rasain perbedaannya

"22DAFC7F",Ak ga tw ttg sikap dy lebih ato gmn

"22DAFC7F",Mngkin akny ga peka

"22DAFC7F",Km pkirin? Kl ak blg k kamu wktu itu? Respon km bkal ky gmn? Dr situ bnrn ak ga ada apa2. Mw dy ngaku suka syg ato skalipun cinta, ga ada ngaruhny buat prsn ak k km ... akny pun udh sma km, akny jg udh sygny sma km ... Ak jg ga ngrti knp dy hrus blg ttg prsan dy wktu itu...  Ak ga tw tjuanny apa

"21C31414",Harusnya km blg ky gtu waktu itu

"21C31414",Km yakinin aku waktu itu

"21C31414",Karna udah dr pertama2 kita kenal sikap made sama km beda

"22DAFC7F",Ak ga peka dy ada yg beda sma ak.ak ga prnh skali pun mkir dy suka ato gmn sma ak

"21C31414",Secara ga langsung km ngeset aku jd slalu ga tenang d hubungan ini slama ini

"22DAFC7F",Yg ak tw dy pny pcar, dy biasa aja sma ak,ak jg jrg bgt kontak2n sma dy ..

"22DAFC7F",Ak ga mksd buat nyembunyiin ato ngebohong k km

"22DAFC7F",Dl kt ga prnh ada crita2 ttg made.. km ga prnh blg kl km pny prsaan made sikapny lebih k aku..  Tpi bnrn,ak ga prnh niat ada bhong sma km,ak pgn crita ak pgn ngmng,dr waktu itu , ak ngrasa ak slah hrus nymbunyiinny dr km.. .tp ak slalu takut sma respon km ..

"21C31414,Itu alasan km pgn bgt ngebeliin dia wine

"22DAFC7F",Bukan

"22DAFC7F",Enggak

"22DAFC7F",Bukan ituuu

"22DAFC7F",:(

"22DAFC7F",Ak ga pgn bgt

"22DAFC7F",Cra dy nagih cm ganggu ak

"22DAFC7F",Ak ga mw d tagih2 aja

"22DAFC7F",Bukan krna dy ngaku wkti itu

"22DAFC7F",Bukan krna ituuuu

"21C31414",Ngerasa kan dia mau nunjukin sesuatu k ak?

"22DAFC7F",Mngkin itu knp dy ввм km wktu itu yg nunjukin ttg wine itu ...ak ga tw deh ....:(

"22DAFC7F",Yg jelas ak ga ada apa2 sma dy, kl dy mw nunjukin sesuatu? Ak ga ngrti..ak ga tw mksd dy smw ini ... udh itu aja ...msalah wine ga ada hub sma dy sk ato enggak sma ak ...

iiiihhh kangennnn. nyiksaaaaaa. arggggg!!!!! ga mau gini terus!!!!!

Aku lho kangen sama kamu. banget , Tapi kali ini aku gakan bilang sama kamu:)

By the way happy 24. :) happy 'that' day always have alway will :)